"I began this essay--which I have dashed off in a fretful compulsion over the course of a fortnight-- compelled by an instinctive conviction that, at the age of 44, my earthly life was near its conclusion. I was not sure—and I remain unsure—if this morbid intimation were based upon an accurate apprehension of impending death, or a kind of premature thanatos-thirst on my part. That is to say, I didn’t know—and still don’t know—if I feel the avid approach of the Reaper due to an accurate sense of Notes Before Death: Three Essays Andy Nowicki 01/26/2016
"I began this essay--which I have dashed off in a fretful compulsion over the course of a fortnight-- compelled by an instinctive conviction that, at the age of 44, my earthly life was near its conclusion. I was not sure—and I remain unsure—if this morbid intimation were based upon an accurate apprehension of impending death, or a kind of premature thanatos-thirst on my part. That is to say, I didn’t know—and still don’t know—if I feel the avid approach of the Reaper due to an accurate sense of
